my weekend with matt was amazinnnnng.
we left saturday and got there, and i was already happy.then we drove around town to look for a place to get some food, so we drove around forever and got wendy’s. saturday was our first night sleeping together :) sunday we went to out of africa and it was so much fun and it was hot out and i got sunburned but i dont care, we got to see tiger splash and the lions eat, and a lion roared at us. it was so cool, and we got panda, and went back to the hotel. and we showered, and went grocery shopping, and i wanted to go swimming but the water at the hotel was kinda cold. Monday, we went walking around uptown, and we got elk jerky and all sorts of fudge, and we just walked around and checked out all the stores, then we got lunch and went back to the hotel and just watched tv the rest of the day, and ordered pizza and the pizza guy was rude, but it was so much fun just being there with matt.
and today we came back home, and i already miss my boyfriend. i got used to sleeping with him at night, and waking up to him every morning.
Listening to the weeknd makes me want to go smoke hookah and have sex.
i miss you so much. i miss everything about you, it was never supposed to be like this. we were supposed to be happy. and stay happy, and never be like this dammit. we’re still together and i’m still holding on, but it feels like i’m holding on to a ghost. the ghost of who you used to be, of who WE used to be. i don’t want to close the door on you just yet, even though you’re pushing me out the door. I just miss you so much. I miss being happy together, and seeing you smile and making you laugh, i miss holding your hand, i miss everything.
I miss you matt.
i can only imagine how much this will hurt when you’re actually not there anymore.
